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The Sun After the Rain

noreply@blogger.com (Jean) — Sat, 24 Oct 2009 16:28:00 +0000

I find comfort in looking out the window today.

The sun always comes out after a rainy day. No matter how dark the day becomes because of the rain, the sun would always comes out. Everyone knows that. I know that.

But sometimes, it’s just hard for me to see the sun, when all that I can see in front of my eyes are the dark clouds.

I am not the expressive type. I do not always have the right words, and I do not always have the right expression, and I do not always give out the right body language. Sad doesn’t always mean sad, and angry doesn’t always mean angry.

Most of the time, I’m fine. I truly am, although I may not seem like it. I know there’s always the sun. Don’t worry.

I like being by myself.

Being expressive? Na dah~ I do not need the attention.

noreply@blogger.com (Jean) — Fri, 23 Oct 2009 09:04:00 +0000

最近很常听见。。。

“。。。女强人。”
“。。。小辣椒。”

突然觉得很可笑。

我不是，但是还是谢谢吧。

Where do I belong...

noreply@blogger.com (Jean) — Mon, 12 Oct 2009 00:16:00 +0000

...you know, there's a time when you feel that you are looking for a place where you actually belong.

Few years back, when I heard someone who went overseas for her studies and later work wanted to come back home because she's tired of being "overseas", I laughed because I could not imagine how someone could be tired of being "overseas". Tired of doing the laundry, tired of doing the cooking, tired of cleaning. I laughed because in my 17-year-old self then, I longed to be as independent as I could be, being able to do everything myself and all by myself. How hard was doing laundry, cooking, cleaning by yourself?

Now being away from home for a long time myself, I finally understand what she meant.

Tired of being away from home.

It's not about being independent or not. It's not about being able to look after oneself without depending on other people.

It's about family.

People who cares, people who give selflessly, people who are related to me by flesh and blood.

It's the sense of belonging.

After a day of work or whatever, I want to go back to a place where I know I belong. A place where I know I am being loved. The place is home where I can hear the voices of daddy, mommy, and the other two little ones.

The first two years of my life away from home doesn't prove to be of any problem. Things were great. The discovery of freedom. Everything else was new and fresh. I was plainly a student who studies and have fun and do nothing else. I have no responsibility whatsoever but just study. How hard was doing laundry, cooking, cleaning by myself? It's a piece of cake. Make it cheesecake, please.

Then I just grow up. I study all the time. I work all the time. I grow up a lot. I slowly have taken over the responsibility of taking care of myself, of surviving in this dog eat dog world, of feeding myself.

I have finally learnt the true meaning of Home. At the end of the day, it is the only place I want to be. The fatigue from work or whatever, home is the "Delete" button.

It's different from a house with friends, no matter how close those friends to me are. I know I have friends who would rush over to me faster than a rocket when I fell and bruise myself. But it's different from family. Friends, after all, have their own family too. They can fly to me in a rocket, they can fly away too in a rocket to where they belong-their own family on MSN, or Skype in their own rooms. I would be left alone then to lick the blood dry if I have fallen too hard.

I'm not a MSN person, nor am I a Skype person. Not a telephone person either. Not that you would not see me on them. I am on MSN most of the time. But I always see a barrier there. There are a lot of things that I can't bring myself to talk about on MSN. MSN is a tool of deceiving. Small talks are fine. For real heart matters, I rather wait till I could see the person in real life. Video call is a kind of compromising.

I think I'm selfish. Because by being face to face, I know I have him/her 100% and not shared between chat windows. Blog is different. It can be for heart matters because for people who do come back, are people who cares.

I know I would not be able to survive in the real world because I'm too loner in nature. I might not seem to be, but I actually am. A loner can die pretty young due to heart congestion, if you get what I mean. Loners are picky bunch who just don't talk to anybody.

Friends come and go, although best ones would still be tied together with a long transparent string that's visible after a shake of sparkles over them. People would change even when you are looking, or at least you thought you are looking. But family is the ones who stay. They stay no matter what.

I am coming home. I surely am.

归宿感

noreply@blogger.com (Jean) — Sat, 03 Oct 2009 23:55:00 +0000

Hello again...

noreply@blogger.com (Jean) — Sun, 27 Sep 2009 23:44:00 +0000

Blogging...

noreply@blogger.com (Jean) — Sat, 19 Sep 2009 17:51:00 +0000

... why do i blog?

This blog started more than 4 years ago. Time flies. It does.

Four++ years ago, I was in college. Being in the transition from the blue pinafore white shoes days to short skirt high heels days, everything seems so exciting and fresh. Making new friends, meeting people, discovering love, organising events, going places and etc, all the love hate relationship with everything and anything, there's just too much memories that were being made.

I set up blogs. On the then living now dying Frienster, then moved to Blogger. Blogs. Not one blog, but blogs.

All sort of things are dumped into these blogs, be it the private ones, or the public ones, with the hope that one day when I, or anyone, looked back at those posts, they would make me smile, or laugh at the stupidity shown by the younger me.

They were created to make me remember, to remind me of things, as I was, and still am a person who take things for granted. But I'm sad to say, this has not been a success. I still forget and let things slide, with a heavy price to pay.

Despite the cheery person that some of you might known me as, a little part of me is somehow insecure. Slowly, some posts were created for me to prove my existence. Or in other words, I blog to get attention, which is a pretty bad thing. Impressions of me as being a fun, smart, pretty, and somewhat spoilt girl were created intentionally, but not to say all things that I blogged about are fake. All things are real. Posts about places that I went, great people that I met, annoying people that made me curse, things I did and everything else are real, but are written in a way that shows the better light of me, which actually, I'm not fun, smart and pretty.

I no longer am going to blog to prove my existence. I do not have to. I do not need to.

For you who know me by my first name and last name, that's all that matters.

This chapter is closed, for a beginning of a new chapter...

...a chapter that is true to you, and myself.

Calling all 017 users...

noreply@blogger.com (Jean) — Sat, 05 Sep 2009 14:17:00 +0000

edit: ok. i've found out why. Weee~ keep my number, people!

10/09/2009

... ok, i'm don't know what's the word to describe myself when i saw this... i have limited vocab, btw.

hmmmm...

i checked it twice. it says the same.

so, does this mean i don't have to top up anymore till 2013, which is 1, 2, 3, 4 FOUR years from now to keep my number active?

and i would not have to top up too if i don't use my credit that much? it's possible, you know, for i don't use much of the credit since i'm only back in malaysia for like few weeks in a year. and starting next year, the longest time i'll be back in malaysia is only a couple of weeks. see. that amount of credit can last.

credit aside, what more important is that i get to keep this number for a loooooooooong time, saving the trouble of everyone updating my phone number every freaking time that i am back.

ok. how could this be? i know maxis have this 365 thing that allow me to keep the number active for 365 days for a fee. but for 4x365days?! ok, i've never heard of that. i didn't sign up for anything, if you are asking.

August 12th is the date that i've activated the number.

4x365days exactly.

i topped up the number with rm60 on 17th August, because i was going singapore and also intended to keep my number active for the 6 weeks that i'm here in malaysia. other than that, i didn't do anything.

Somebody, tell me, HOW??!

i google-ed. there's nothing.

Is there something that i'm missing?

but.

i'm happy. because i can keep the number till i come back for malaysia for good.

i just hope that when i check it next week, it would still tell me the same thing.

and i can tell EVERYBODY, "KEEP MY NUMBER!" (((((((((((((((((((((((((:

keep the fingers crossed.

Bubbly Jean speaking...

noreply@blogger.com (Jean) — Wed, 26 Aug 2009 04:46:00 +0000

... the sulky and lonely Jean who is sorry for herself can just shut up. Better still, shut down and don't come back.

It's all about ME ME ME!

14^th days ago i hopped on Emirates EK036 and EK346. 18 hours later, i'm in KLIA. Few more hours later, I'm back in KUCHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *dance dance dance*

Getting ready to be pampered. Heh~

It's good to be home, where daddymommysisandbro are there to do everything for me. I could just let everything down, and just say, "i want...". Heh~

Not to say home is all so familiar. Things change. There's new stuff coming in, and old stuff going out without me having the chance to say goodbye. Also, while me at the other side of the world thinking that Brand's Essence of Chicken is the ultimate luxury item in the family, the family has evolved to taking bird nest already -_-||| i'm so left out.

Not just home changes, the whole city changes. Roads are different. New hotels are everywhere. And Tun Jugah is dead. Such a waste. But what to do? Kuching consumer power is so low. One new shopping centre up, another old one sure die.

Not that Kuching people don't shop. Just that Kuching people prefer to go KL and Singapore to do their shopping. No wonder local shopping centre is dead. It works like a cycle. Kuching people complain there's no where to shop in Kuching, so they go KL/Singapore. Those big big brands see Kuching people don't like to shop in Kuching, so won't open up stores here.

Not that they didn't try. They opened, and rolled up the business not long after. As a consequent, Kuching people still continuing going KL/Singapore for shopping, big brands don't want to set up business here as they don't see the point, and Kuching people continuing complaining there's no place to shop in Kuching. Sad case.

I haven't met up with anyone yet. Still coped up in the house after came back from Singapore. Oh yea, my Singapore trip. I just want to say I like Singapore ((((((((((((((((((:

I think a successful country starts with excellent public transport. Call me ignorant. But that's what i think.

I have been putting off to do things that i should be doing. One if it would be my hospital pre-reg applications, in which the deadline would be in few days time *gasps*. But should i really do those applications? I mean, I wouldn't be around for the interviews. I already have one job offer \= I hate hate hate myself for always thinking of the WHAT IFs. I need to be sure of what i really want to do, ASAP!

I should go to pack up my old things in my home into boxes. Clear out the closet and the cupboard of my things. I felt have left too much stuff lying around the house even though i'm not around for the whole year. I should clear out the space to let the sis have more space for her expending wardrobe, and her expending collections of who knows what. Also, if things go well, with my things in boxes, it'll be so much easier for daddymommysisandbro to move them when the times come.

I need to go find boxes for packing and black marker pen for labelling...

... and end this ME ME ME! post.

Oh.. and start calling people out for teh session. Time's running out!

古巨基 & 梁静茹 - 还是好朋友

noreply@blogger.com (Jean) — Sun, 16 Aug 2009 13:06:00 +0000

没有人要内疚没需要原宥
在十字街头就相互保佑
那些体贴问候那美丽镜头
没必要一分开就变成了诅咒
相爱这一场
可能是为了能拥有一个好朋友
还是好朋友比爱人长久
不能牵的手按在心头
在最寂寞的关头永远在左右
事过情迁后
（升华以后）升华眼泪后
思念是最漫长的享受
（漫长的享受）
那无痛的伤口还带着温柔到白头
亲吻失去感受火花烧到尽头
没有激情有感情
有另一种邂逅
相爱这一场
可能是为了能拥有一个好朋友
还是好朋友比爱人长久
不能牵的手按在心头
在最寂寞的关头永远在左右
事过情迁后（升华以后）升华眼泪后
思念是最漫长的享受（漫长的享受）
那无痛的伤口还带着温柔到白头
（是什么叫你我只配做一对好朋友

I'm home...

noreply@blogger.com (Jean) — Thu, 13 Aug 2009 16:04:00 +0000

... in Kuching...
... where the heart is...

I want all these to be just a bad dream

noreply@blogger.com (Jean) — Tue, 11 Aug 2009 01:36:00 +0000

It happened and everything seems to go bad with it. Everything that I want to do just doesn't end up smooth.

I could not get access to my money that I have. Stupid policy. I never knew it would actually be a policy that I could not get out from. I thought it would just involve penalty fees, but it's not. I was "educated" that I could cancel it anytime. But obviously, it's not Malaysia here. Things are different here.

I was thrown in a financial crisis. Deep shit.

Nevermind. I worked things out. Not an easy decision, but it'll see me through.

I bloody have no idea that posting a letter works by double standard. Things that work for Hong Kong, does not work for Malaysia. A service that only requires two days for Hong Kong needs 4-5 days for Malaysia. That has totally caught me off guard. Both countries are in Asia, but why are they different? I don't know what to do and what to think. 4-5 days. Crap.

I believe it's just fate. It is just meant to let things happen this way.

I have no power over it.

Hell. I almost couldn't get home. Flights are full. I've never seen so many "sold out" phrases in my life of 22 years. Then for who the hell would know the reasons, my card was denied for who knows why. I'm not in debt or anything. In fact, I have more than enough. More than enough even to upgrade the bloody flight to the most throat slitting price possible, not that it's already not. Why the hack it reject my card for?

Proved the saying, there are some things that you can't buy even when you have the money.

Now, I just want to go home.

Just want to.

Go home.

Last day… LAST DAY!!!

noreply@blogger.com (Jean) — Fri, 07 Aug 2009 22:31:00 +0000

Ok, tomorrow is going to be my official last day to be known as "The Summer Student", and I'll never have the chance ever again to be a Summer Student because I'm will never ever be a Summer Student anymore. Heh. I'm repeating myself. So now, in September, I'll be a final year university student, and next year this time, I'll be undergoing my pre-registration year. Gulp. Just gulp.

I'll remember Ann. She has taken care of me well. She has made sure I've got the time I need to do my readings and not be tied down with the dispensary work.

"Jeannie, go and do your modules now."

"I'll go after Brenda comes back."

"No, go now!"

"And left you and Ashleigh two of you ONLY in the store?"

"Yes, just go."

"But, but, but…"

"GO!"

Not every tutor is like that. I want her for next year. But why are they sending me away??!! Evil HR people.

I'll remember Lisa. She likes to put the photos of her two twin sons Dylan and Finn in the staff exclusive areas. Hehe.

I'll remember Brenda. She's the sweets supplier.

I'll remember Debbie. I like her smile.

I'll remember Margaret. She gave me a new name. I'm now Gina.

I'll remember Small Ann. She's smaller size as me. Teehee.

Everyone knows everyone. That's what I like being in a small store which is the local pharmacy sort of store. But they the evil HR has send me to a bigger store of the health and beauty type for my pre-reg training. Cheh.. big store my foot. It doesn't have a Clinique counter.

Actually, I have thoughts. Thoughts that just haunt me every minutes because it's my career we are talking about.

I'm keeping my options open.

Haywire…

noreply@blogger.com (Jean) — Sat, 25 Jul 2009 23:19:00 +0000

…that's the state of the humble mind now.

I keep telling people I'm 23, although I'm only 22.

I have so many things to do now.

List:

Prepare the presentation for interviews for next Thursday.

Finish up more job applications.

Look up where to go in Lake District.

Which reminds me to get my train tickets soon.

Do market research for some online business.

Try to get more money as currently am a little short on the money for the school fee.

Get more "evidences" for my final review day. I have seemed to stop learning grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

Sigh. Nevermind the list. Most importantly is the first 2 and I'm stuck.

I'm tired.

I don't even know what this post is supposed to mean.

I wasn’t blogging because…

noreply@blogger.com (Jean) — Wed, 15 Jul 2009 12:10:00 +0000

… I was at New Orleans, USA!!!

Yea, right. As if. That was taken at Trafford Centre, Manchester. Oh yup. I was there last Sunday. And I had my dinner at Tai Hu (((((((:

I wasn't blogging because I don't have internet in my room. Actually, the whole house hasn't gotten the broadband, merely stealing line from somewhere else, which can only be done from a certain spot in the house.

Life now is kinda a roller coaster.

Wait a minute. Roller coaster is exciting and fun and well, exciting. Life now is so far from those. How can I say life now is like a roller coaster? Hmmmpppfff Everyday is work, work, work. Six days a week somemore. But I'm not in a position to complain because there is someone out there who works more days than I do. So, be happy, be smiley, be sunny (((((: It keeps raining these days. It has just started to rain now, again.

I have so much to tell, so much to say, so much to rant!

Work, work and work. Actually it's not just work. It's my interview as well ))))))): Not that I'm proud with my performance so far, as I have not been driving by my own and just a passenger. Passenger at the back seat some more, if you get what I mean. But my job review is over today and my tutor has turned from a nice lady to a strict headmaster in a blink of an eye for that review. Now is all just up to the HR to decide.

I have learnt a very important phrase these two days. The phrase is "I'm attached" or something along that line. Yesterday, there's this guy who drove by me along the main road when I was walking home. Well, he wasn't exactly drive by. He was on the opposite land from where I was. I saw him signaling, so I thought he was turning into the junction, which lead into the road to my house. He stopped and I crossed the road to the side of the road that I wanted to get to, which was also the side of the road that he was stopping. Then he suddenly put down his window and tell me I'm pretty -.-||||||| I didn't want to pay attention to him, but he followed me with his car!!!!! EeeeeeiiikkkkkKKKKKKKKSSSS! But when I mentioned I have a boyfriend, he said goodbye. LMAO! Then today, there's another guy who walk up to me and started talking. When he asked whether I'm attached and I said yes, and my boyfriend is waiting at home, he said goodbye not long after. HAHAHA. I'm not lying. My boyfriend is at home. Home= Malaysia, Malaysia =Home.

I don't even look my best when they happened, for LAUGHING OUT LOUD. I was just getting back from work, tired and extremely hungry. My that sort of look attracts meh? Probably because I walk with my head down, so they think I'm an easy target. Things to learn from the story: ALWAYS walk confidently. Also, if that guy is in a car, walk the opposite direction of traffic. If the guy walks, stick to the main road, and the main road only till the magic phrase find its chance to pop out. Well, that is if they respect the meaning of the phrase.

Work, work and work. Sigh. Back to work. I couldn't say it's all work and no fun. I learnt something everyday. Seeing how a little pharmacy operates, dealing with customers, discovering that the store actually stock what the customers wanted after an apologetic smile that accompany "We don't stock them". How am I supposed to know what changes have been made to the shop floor as things get changed every day?! Well, myself to blame also as I kept myself in the dispensary way too often for my own good. But I really should stop getting myself to get all the dispensary work done. I should be focusing on my own training instead, which is…. be more clinical in every single way, which is what this career is about. I am trained to be the expert in medicine. I go through this four-year course is to help people make the most out of their medicine. I am not trained to be a dispenser. REMEMBER THAT.

When listening to how people who are on the same placement programme are doing, sometimes I can't stop wondering how different my training would be if I'm under another tutor. My tutor now is really good. She guides me a lot. Just the problem now is myself not pushing myself hard enough, not grasping the opportunities to expend myself beyond my comfort zone. I have all the resources that I could possibly have. I really should think about what I really want to do so I would not waste the privilege of being a student who have all the back-ups behind me to let me go further, something which I would not have when I truly qualify. Well, not to say that the company does not provide opportunity for development, but it would be of a different kind than those I have now. This stage of being in the transition has its own magic. I really should hold it tight. 3 more weeks. I should work out something different before it ends.

On the other hand, I should stop spending my money on make-ups. I don't even use them that often to having to "keep stock". The problem with me when I'm spending is I always get one too many of the same thing. Like that day in Manchester, I bought one mascara which is off two colours, one purple and one turquoise from Vie, then when dropped into Bodyshop I bought their clear mascara. Ok, they are off different colours and off different functions, they are still mascara and I already have two black ones, one from Maybelline and one from L'oreal sitting at home. It's like.. Hello, how often do I wear make-up? Ok, maybe for the clear one I have a reason to get it, as it good when there's a need tidy up a bit, without the heaviness of the black one. Plus, it won't smudge no matter what's the weather HAHA. But, for the coloured ones? When and for what occasion would I need to wear purple or green eyelashes?! Then I also bought 4 tubes of lip glosses from Bodyshop. FOUR! FOUR, people. I already have trouble finishing two tubes that I already have, one from Maybelline and another from BabyPink, and now I bought myself another four. Madness. Absolutely madness. The reason I bought them it's because they come in a set of four which is in a tin, and they are reduced. by. a. lot. 14pounds to 3.50pounds. That's like 75% off! Add on the Love Your Body loyalty card, that's a really huge reduction. They are last Christmas gift set, that's why they are reduced. But who cares they are last year's gift set or not, really. It's still the same thing.

Ok, Vie. They are part of Virgin. I didn't know Virgin is into cosmetics as well. Ha.Ha. Is there any sector that this mega huge media company can keep their hands off? Vie have a wide range of cosmetics and bath things. Other than the mascara which I regretted I bought because I have one too many, their shower gel/ scrub are lovely. I bought one with which is called Bali and another one called Hawaii. Bali has this gingerly smell, and Hawaii has this flowery smell. I have only used Bali. Hawaii is still sitting in my room instead of the shower. I can't describe how good they are yet, but one thing for sure is they are of good value (((((: Who love reduced items, hands up, please. The reduction was from 8.75pounds to 2pounds. That's like more than 75% off!! And their lip brush is reduced from 6pounds to 1.80pounds!!! Weeeeheeehe~ But wait a minute, I do not need a lip brush!!!! I bought it anyway -.-||| Hate it hate it hate it when I spend money on things that I do not need. But but but it's on reduced.

See, I always have this angel and demon thing whenever I shop.

My damage for that day in Manchester:

Not that much, but it's still money -.-|||

The little pots are bodybutter samples ((((: I saw them on the counter and told the girl I would like one of each. Hehe. So I have strawberry, wild cherry, olive, coconut and hemp bodybutter, and one small pot of mango shower gel ((((((:

And I've also bought another 1Gb memory card for my Olympus. It's on reduced. 4.75pounds (((((((((((((: ok la.. I know now memory cards come in 2Gb and higher. 1Gb is so out already. But I don't mind swapping memory cards when one of them is full.

This post is going to end now.

One last thing.. the new house is still dirty Ha.HA. I couldn't bring myself to buy anything from Ikea when the house, or rather my own room is in this state. Sigh. I shall go to demand for my single size bed from the house agent now. Double bed feel so empty.

Ta~ Let see what damages I'll do to my purse next time.

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This week?

noreply@blogger.com (Jean) — Sun, 21 Jun 2009 16:26:00 +0000

Oh wow!

Transformer was absolutely amazing. Amazing. Absolutely amazing. It’s either that, or it’s because I haven’t been into a cinema for some time.

Bride Wars was also good. I have just watched it streaming off from the net. Important morals in there.

This week is like… not really hell, not close to it either. It’s just that one of those things that was supposed to be slowly and steadily being put into the brain throughout the 8 weeks was being carried out crash course style in 3 days. That was cool, anyway, as that one of those things is something that was used to be carried out by those professionals in a 10” x 10” space surrounded by shelves filled up with loads of round or oval or triangular of whatever colours or liquid even which is not the main responsibility of those professionals anymore but which would still required those professionals to do them once in a while. I don’t think I made myself very clear. Well, you’ll know what I meant if you know what course I’m doing at the moment.

Learnt how to those in the univ also wad~ so big deal meh?

Not so hor. Nevermind. I have a very deluded mind that can delude me into thinking whatever I do, something good will come out of it.

So, that’s out of the way. What’s next?

More sleep lolx.

I had almost lost it the other day by putting cereal into the microwave. That day was a day after everyone packed up and left Sundie. Probably the thought that they have left me just sank in then.

Sigh...

Great times…

noreply@blogger.com (Jean) — Tue, 16 Jun 2009 21:16:00 +0000

…when there’s everybody in the picture. Well, with most people were pictured in the mind, and not on the SD card.

…when everybody’s happily celebrating you growing old. Well, they are growing old themselves, anyway.

… when everyone’s know how to spell your first name right. But that doesn’t matter. The person brings out all the fun, not the name.

Great times…

… once was not enough

… twice was considered few too

… and they had to make it three times

…actually, it was 4 times. This time, it was Lo Mai Kai, with a birthday cake drawn on the packaging.

Great times…

… when creams suddenly was your face and hair mask.

On the other note...
guess what is this bowl of thing here...

is it...

A) vomit
B) 豆腐花 dau fu fa
C) mixture of Heineken, Irish Cream and Absolute vodka

Well, A is not the answer because I downed the whole thing, and I couldn't have possibly downed vomit. yewwww~

~guess guess~

It's JUNE~

noreply@blogger.com (Jean) — Thu, 11 Jun 2009 15:37:00 +0000

as you all know, or do not know.. it's my birthday (=

i was being dragged out of bed, "cream"ed all over and had to take another shower in the middle of the night around 2am right after i took one when i got back from work and went to bed.

blaming Oasis concert at the Stadium of Light. because of them, my shop had to open till late way pass business hours and i had to work overtime. not really overtime la, exactly 12midnight. usually my boss would come around quarter to 12 to release me. my boss came, but couldn't close the shop as people keep pouring in. raining somemore. quite pity the people at the concert. they were soaked.

it's ok. my boss drove me home after. i came home dry. haha.

but devils were at home waiting for me, and only presented themselves when i was asleep. photos are with one of the devils. will get them soon and will try to find some not so ugly ones i.e. no double chin, no flabby arms and post them up.

so, i've got lots of surprises and wishes this year. a big hug to all buddies those who are around or who are across the globe.

...cards with loads of signatures and a bar of chocolate. Godiva choc *slurp*

...3rd birthday cake from Felicia and Steven

... wings powered with love to let me fly and achieve my dreams ((((((:

... a pwwweeeetttty top, puuuuurrfect for summer! let's go to the beach!

remember this? really for laughing out loud! these are what i got from the bunch...

can you see the contrast?

you can't?

i'll highlight it for you.

see it now?

sometimes, we can tell a lot about ourselves from the presents we received. so, this bunch see me as a person who could be so innocent and also could be a sexy little kitten. hahaha. i'm so versatile meh?

This birthday is definately something in my 22 years of memories. Thanks, guys.

-Thanks, in no particular order, Cathy, Lily, Robert, Liwan, Martin, Vita, Adrian, Vincent, Chloe, EeLian, Jeffrey, HuiSing, who directly and indirectly smack cream on me, then Felicia, Stephen, LiPei, EQian, Sarah, Jac, KahHue and LaiYee, also from this side of the globe Ridna, Kam, Chris, Hannah, Grace, MuhYuan, YukLing, Leo, Esther, AhChua. From the other side of the globe, my parents, Bear, ShenLung, Queenie, Deborah, Sylvia, Archer, WeiNa 老师, Jessie, Allen, QuanPo, Alvin, Nicholas, Kevin, Jeremy, Eileen, AhTong, Eleanor, Robert, Gwendelynn, Northon, EkSia, Annie........and loads more (:-

The SINful Quest V

noreply@blogger.com (Jean) — Sat, 06 Jun 2009 16:40:00 +0000

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You know, Take That is performing at Stadium of Light at the moment. Oasis next Wednesday. I am hearing everything from my room. which is half an hour walk away from the stadium. Now is the song Rule the World. Sound does travel, and they travel far. If only I'm with the crowds now. But for 50pounds per tickets, sobs...

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The last post from my Christmas food hunting trip.

This is Tang Gong 唐宫 which is just opposite of the Travelodge on Vicar Land, Leeds. Another place with food which is good value for money, well sort of for some of the dishes.

A very traditional Chinese restaurant, with decorations dominated by the red table clothes and yellow napkins d= Since when do restaurant reviews are done this way?

This is something we had never tired before. I think it was something called Vietnam Chicken Fillet Cake. The portion, as you can see, is not very impressive.
Then we had the Wrapped Chicken, wrapped with rice paper. Very oily.

Other than these two, the rest of the dim sum are *slurp*.

Like usual, we had all those.. the chiong fan, siu my, ha gao, gao choi gao, lo mai kai, then the steamed pork ribs.

These were for high tea. They are all priced around 2 to 4 pounds per dish, which is the standard pricing everywhere for a chinese restaurant.

And we went back the next day for breakfast.
The lean meat with century egg porridge..
... and the flat rice noodles with seafood.
The chinese egg tart, which is very different from the normal egg tarts. The difference is in the skin which is made up of thousands of layers of thin skin instead of one thick one. Always had these ta pau-ed back to Sunderland whenever someone went to Newcastle. haha. Still not tired off them, so even in Leeds still ordered some.
Cute~

... more love for all of you!

The END

L.I.F.E?

noreply@blogger.com (Jean) — Sat, 06 Jun 2009 00:17:00 +0000

I saw Chloe's post and I went, "Ahhh.. I have that photo too."

Just that mine was taken during winter, and hers was in spring.

True, life is full of choices. You'll always face crossroads every now and then. Different path would lead you pass a different scenery. But whichever way you go, either you followed the angel's or the demon's voice, the aim is the same-live life to the fullest. Quote Chloe's "Not about making the right decision, but making the decision right"

She's such a darling.

Anyway, my exam ended. Ended a looooooooong time ago, i.e 4 days ago. But I have been more occupied than during exam time.

The post exam feeling is like... a mess. I better sort it out soon.

Too many things are going on now.

Haha.

Too much food around.

But too bad. The damage to the gastric layer has already been done during the exam period.

Goodnight.

For my B.I.R.T.H.D.A.Y...

noreply@blogger.com (Jean) — Wed, 27 May 2009 23:39:00 +0000

(to some people who are of concern. haha. you know who you are.)
... which is like, two weeks from today?

NOOOOO~~~ in two weeks and i'm 22. Double 2, wei~, not Double-0-7. So old.

But then again, i should keep my mouth shut. i'm already younger than most of you.

Since you guys asked me to be a little bit more "automatic"-自动-in-other-words-be-more-thick-faced/skin, so as to save you guys from draining more brain juice after the terrible horrible gruesome exam, here's the "thing" that i come up with.

I want...

"Things that you would like to see me wear in the house"

For laughing out loud!!!

Have fun~!

p/s: Two pounds in cheque does not count.

A little bit of...

noreply@blogger.com (Jean) — Sat, 16 May 2009 21:59:00 +0000

... L.O.V.E

a little bowl of
homecook japanese miso soup
with some love
for
all of you
who are having
exam

Preparing for the so called...

noreply@blogger.com (Jean) — Fri, 08 May 2009 13:09:00 +0000

..."war".

Sluuuuuurp~

One more week before exam, and here we are.

S.T.E.A.M.B.O.A.T!!!

This is just one of the stations, uuookei? We had four stations.

Another one of the stations is this...

Weeeei~uuuuooo~weeeeeeeeei~uuooo~weei~.

Next time round, that thing would be by the beach!! Can't wait!! Roker, wait for us!

By then, no tapping of the fire alarm sensor Oh yea~. We taped the sensor this time, just in case. It was soooo funny!

Pity prawn. We gave it a new set of armour. Half red and half black one. Beautiful, no?

Then we stripped it naked. Muahahahaha. See how tiny it become without its armour. Like 虾米 d=

**ROFL**
I just have to share this photo to the whole wide world!!

No idea this picture is so small. Must have double resized it haha

On the other note,

Oh Jean.. revise please. Exam is sooo so near. you got your coursework marks sooooo high, don't waste them, please. Can achieve 1st class one, study now!!

Sigh~ you want to be the pretty-brained-multitalented-sweet-loving-fun-all so prefect one. But, you are not pretty, not brained, not multitalented, sweet hmmm.. might be a little, not so loving, not fun all day stayed in room Youtube-ing, not perfect girl. Can you put a little more effort in you exam or not?? Not pretty already, so must at least have some other thing to be proud of. Then again, you are not brainy, and still not revising now. Double sigh~. Then, you have no talent at all. You can't sing well, can't play any musical instruments at all, you can cook but just normal dishes and not restaurant standards that can make people drool haiyo~. You have been skipping your training also, your stamina that you have built up all this while might be gone already laaaa . WAsted WASTED~. So, don't mess up on your result. That's the only thing your parents wouldn't want you to do- messing up your result. However, don't quit your part-time job now. Learn how to take care of you time now. Balance it between work, school, training (Don't skip anymore trainings!!) and friends&family. It's not about the money, although you are already very careful with your money. Most importantly, is to learn to be independent. Good thing you are resposible enought to not let your parents help wipe your ass with any financial mishap. Parents are there to fall back to, but you have the resposibility to fend yourself at this age. Sigh~ all the trouble to get the JPA student loan. Got it, but am giving it up. Haha. Can't believe all the time spent on the application forms and stuff gone. Why am I giving it up? Good question, but... Heh~ not telling. Now, am going back to depend on parents for every financial stuff. Not that bad also. At least I wouldn't owe any people any money.
Hooooooooooooooi~ enough already.
Do you revison now!

The SINful Quest IV

noreply@blogger.com (Jean) — Mon, 04 May 2009 13:14:00 +0000

The last stop of our Christmas yummy adventure- Leeds!

We again stayed at one of the Travelodge hotels, like how we always do wherever we go.

Vicar Land is so call the China Town of Leeds. There’s no arch or whatever, but is the place with loads of Chinese shops. We found durians too!

Mr. Ho’s is just a few shops away from the place we stayed. We were attracted to it because of its 5 for 4 dishes offer Weehee~. So, that was loads of food for us. Actually, they were not running the offer on that day, just that they did not take off the little advertorial that was stuck on their window. Teeeh~ a bit, they run the offer for us. They should anyway. It was stated in red and green. The paper was green, the words were red. There, red and green! When we finished, the little advertorial is no longer there. Haaah~

However, their food is nothing to rave about. We found them so-so. Their price range is also a little bit on the pricy side comparing to other Chinese restaurants we have been to. Portion wise they are smaller too. Or maybe it was smaller because they had to do their 5 for 4 dishes offer for us with a little bit of hard feeling. Heh~. Duunnnooo~

Mr. Ho’s is more of a very Westernized Chinese restaurant. You can tell from the things they use and the decoration.

Oh, and their toilet is really beautiful. Haha.

Please understand

noreply@blogger.com (Jean) — Tue, 28 Apr 2009 14:53:00 +0000

Saw this video the other day when i am supposed to be buried under books.

Ignore the fact that the child could have spoken something.

Ignore the fact that the parents had not been able to talk to and understand their child.

Ignore the fact that the teachers, the doctors and the nurses not being able to communicate with the child.

And also,

Ignore the fact that that is a waste of paper and crayons.

Think.

How many times have I, have you, have we failed to see the world from other’s perspective?