Warning: Just another emo post..

I was actually feeling pretty sucky since I came back from my WebCT test.

It’s not that I didn’t know how to answers the questions.. let me rephrase that again, it’s not that I didn’t know how to answer all questions, I did know how to answer all questions except for two. One was filling in the blank which did not make any sense to me at all. Was I supposed to fill in an adjective, a verb or a noun in that blank? Seriously, that question did not make any sense to me at all. It was my poor command of this language’s vocabulary, I guess. noun ____ noun, that blank was going to be filled with a verb, wasn’t it? Am I making any sense here, no? Obviously, I’m not. Nevermind that.

The other question was the one which made gave me all the dark clouds. It was a calculation question, a simple calculation question which only involved simple multiplications and divisions, and calculator was allowed. I was so mad at myself because I could not do it, which I believe I should be able to.

I do not mind not being able to answer those questions which require plain memorising work, because memorising only works a pea size section of the brain (not quoting from anywhere but my own nonsense). I do not like to make my brain to work on memorising lists of things, so most of the time, in a list of 10 items, I could only give you 8 of them. Memorising mathematical formulae is different, because by working few questions on a certain formula, it would just stick.

I always wanted to get all my calculation questions right, no matter where and when, except during.. well, quite a few exemption actually: advanced maths in SPM, 4th module of the maths in A-levels. Other than those, I must and always get calculations questions right, because they are simple questions and can be treated as free marks.

This post is not getting anywhere.

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What I want to say is, I believe I could have managed to answer that question. I could have worked it out in the end, but I couldn’t because I’m just too… kind. I was sharing my calculator. Don’t ask who, don’t ask how, and don’t ask why. Part of me want to blame something for not being able to answer that question. But a bigger part of me is pointing the fingers at my own self.

This really is my own problem which I have brought on onto my own self, which is the result of a high self expectation.


If you have read all the way through, you really do not have nothing else to do, do you?

Anyway, the weather today was crappy. We had the full package.. strong wind, snow, hail stones, rain and sun.

Windy days and a little bit of everything else...

These few days the wind has been strong. It is so strong till the construction workers working on bringing down the Wearmouth Building had to direct students away from the construction site. Guess the project is now delayed for a few days. Haa.. Wanna watch a video of the tearing down of Wearmouth Hall few weeks back?

So, yesterday we had our lectures in a high risk area. They stopped us from walking pass the building, but the lectures were still on. Let me show you...

Can you imagine? Plus, the building is covered with plastic sheet to prevent debris from flying all over the place, which made the sound of the wind even louder. Second hour of the lectures, a person in a very smart suit, very charming too, came in and told us, "You will be escorted whenever you want to leave this building." Huo~ they are clearing the proximity of that shaky building, sealing all the pedestrian paths, but let us stayed on for our lectures in that tiny two -storey building vs the N-storey on the verge of collapse (literally) building. Scary...

The wind was and still is terribly strong.

Off your music and just listen to the wind, especially around the 12th and 25th sec. That was taken from my room, with the window closed. Last night was even worse. I could not sleep because of the sound made by the wind. It kept waking me up, and I swear I could feel my bed shaking. I could feel my desk shaking when I was having my breakfast. The wind died down a bit this afternoon and I could catch up on my sleep. The wind is still howling outside. I think tonight would be another sleepless night.

The result of the dispensing test is finally out. Mine spelled p.a.s.s. They brought this test from 4th year to 2nd year. Glad we had it done and got over with so that we can focus on other stuff during our 4th year.

Why do we have lots of group reports and group presentations to do? Why can't they be individual reports? I don't mind the group presentations though. After lots of whining to myself, I finally came up with an answer: group reports means the lab tutors would have lesser pieces of work to read. Cunning people we have there... I hate group reports...

One presentation down, at least 6 more to go. Oh, and the reason for having lots of presentations is: no papers to read.

Geezzz.. the strong wind is driving me mad...

Seriously, I doubt myself. Am I really that bad? Why do other have can have theirs spot on and I can't? Or was it a blessing in disguise?

Edinburgh Firework 2008

Just something to share..

My Chirstmas break...

...this was the view from my working desk. I ended my contract just the week the holiday started. It was easy money. 6 days and I earned 450+/-. It's not in RM, it's in POUNDS~...

...then, we had a steamboat to celebrate the start of the winter break. We went to Newcastle to pick up all the ingredients. The ironic thing was that, all those fishballs, squid balls etc etc etc that we bought were made in Malaysia. Patriotic, no?...

...that's the Trent Building of Nottingham. Nice view, isn't it?...


...then I satisfied my shopping craze at Bullring, Birmingham. It's a shopper heaven.. aaaaahhh~~...

...and I saw the sweetest bull around. It's made of jellybeans!!!...

...£21.99 for a water bottle, anyone?...

...I experienced my first highway jam...

...seen all the lovly lights at Blackpool...

...went to the home of MU...

...another shopping craze at Trafford Centre, Manchester...

...had a small Christmas party with homecook dishes, well, most of them. Too bad there was no turkey compared to last yer when we had not one, but TWO...

... and presents!!!...

...Malaysia Girls UNITED! where were all the guys...

...and Cathy celebrated her 21st birthday with a big bang...

...crossed the England-Scotland border for the first time...

...experienced, for the first time, a very very misty drive...


...attended Hogmanay...

...had another small party as LaiYee celebrated her 21st birthday, as well...

...and not forgetting a group photo with the birthday girl (in pink)...

That's the end.. really the end. I'm now buried!

It was so so carefree during the holiday. I had my 10-hour sleep everyday, except on the days that I was out. I spent loads of time catching up on dramas, till I couldn't find anything else and freakishly watched 公主小妹! Can you tell how free I was then? Now, it's all gone gone and gone...

I am mad at you!

did this few days ago, just didn't feel like posting it then

Yesh~ you!! Can’t you just be a little bit more committed? I helped you on most of the hard stuff, you just need to put in a tinny winny more of your own effort to get it done. Why can’t you just do it? I spent one precious morning with you to get you sorted, not forgetting that night too. I could have used that time I was with you to get my other things done, but I didn’t. You called me up middle of the night, saying you missed out one set of data that you worked on in my room, on my computer. I printed them out for you. You said you would get them from me the next morning during one of the short gap between lectures as you would have to miss the lectures to get your work done. I waited for you text, and it had never arrived. I called you up and you bloody helly tell me you do not want to work on it anymore as you have worked on it for like.. 4 hours? FOUR HOURS?! ONLY??! What’s your four hours compared to the time I placed on my own piece of work??! It’s like a pea besides a melon, wookay?! You only need at most another hour to get it done and you decided to give up. I’m such a sucker on the phone. I swear I would have made you worked on it if we were talking face to face. GRR.. no point talking ‘What if-s’. It’s just a little bit more. I’ve even offered to drop by your place to help with all those bits and bobs that you proclaimed you couldn’t do. You said thank you but no, thanks. Fine! You seriously are not worth it. I helped others instead. Grr.. 浪费我的时间. 有时真的不懂你们这些白人到底是怎么想。。。不止这样，你也真的把男人的脸都丢光了。为何不坚持到底？。。。不讲了。 我很忙啊！