Thursday, July 26, 2007

The Saturday and Sunday Before This Week's.

Saturday afternoon..

I finished watching Attention Please アテンションプリーズ.


Image from DramaWiki

I spent two afternoon watching that Japanese drama. It tells the story of a girl Misaki Yoko, played by Ueto Aya, on her journey to be a qualified cabin crew. Along the way, she discovered herself and tested her limits. Being the last in class, she stopped attending her classes few times. But her trainer Mikami Tamaki, played by Maya Miki, found herself attracted (not the les type of attraction, mind you) to this young girl and never gave up on her due to some reasons that were only unearthed in the second last episode.

Seeing her transition from no skill no anything nobody to a qualified cabin crew made me see the process that I’m going through too.

We cannot be competent in just a blink of the eyes. We cannot acquire all knowledge in just a minute. Being really really good takes time and effort. We have high expectations of ourselves, but when we cannot reach the level that we are aiming for, we sulk, we give up, not knowing that it’s time to push ourselves harder to reach that goal. Some people are blessed to realise it in time to pick themselves up to try harder, some just gave up forever.

Being in schools (universities, training centres etc) means we can make mistakes and learn from them without a very heavy price to pay. The most that we have to pay is probably receiving a good scolding from our tutors for being not thorough enough We can ask questions without being judge on our competency because we are, after all, still carrying the name tag ‘STUDENT’. Schools prepare us as fully as they can for our journey ahead. But when we are let out to the real world where every human contact is by chance and every situation is real, can we face it? Do all the books that we read, all the marks that we have scored during exams prepare us for these? Hell, no. Well, at least not for me for the time being. I was not taught how to deal with short tempered patients. I was not taught how to deal with patients who do not speak my languages.

I’m more motivated and determined after watching this drama.Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at PhotobucketNo body is stopping us from being the best we can except ourselves.

Saturday night..


I went to Inti Charity Concert. But before that, I had my dinner at Shiok café. I ordered a plate of vegetable salad as I did not really have the appetite.


It tasted absolutely canned food-ish -__-

But I like the interior. The chairs are comfy and the colour combinations are just nice. One question. How many eateries put up the photos of our Agong and His Permaisuri? This one does. Any other? The photos are placed on the wall directly behind me. It’s not that I did not want to see the photos. I just like to have a wall behind me.



If you want a place to feast your eyes on handsome waiters, this is not the place to go. Our waiter was an old man, and there was no other waiter in sight.



The only young guy in the café that night was none other then my friend, GuoQing, my primary school classmate and my driver for that night.

Anyway, around 7 we left without feeling shiok, duh~. Arrived a couple of minutes after at Inti as it is not that far away from where I ate. Finally, met up with Sylvia and Nelly. Woohoo~~ miss you gals.

One word to describe the bands: L.O.U.D. The drum was loud, the guitar was loud, the bass was loud. Any other thing, however, are *ahem**Turned head, faced friend*, ‘What did he say?’*shrug shrug*

The number of performances for the night is countless.

11.30pm*yawn*

The organisers do deserve a big round of applause*applause applause*. It’s not easy to organise such a thing.


See the sweet couple sitting infront of me?

Sunday morning..

I went to my maternal grandparents’ house. It is in Serian. As usual, we would head for the town first before visiting my grandparents. The place is really different after a fire burnt down a row of old shophouses. The place seems more… empty. The flame not only torched the shophouses, it also torched the fire rescue team.

Anyway, when I reached my grandparents’ house, it’s time for me to finally bring myself to change the phase ‘grandparents’ house’ to ‘grandma’s house’. Grandpa passed away when I was in UK. Nobody told me anything when he was gone. But I picked up hints from my sis’s blog. I was having my final exams that time. Putting up a face in front of people as if nothing had happened was quite an easy job. The far away look was easily taken as exam stress. The silence was easily taken as, again, exam stress. Studying alone in my room, the tears would sometimes played around in my eyes and blurred my vision. Good thing I still passed my papers despite not being able to read properly.Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket

Grandpa had always been the healthy one. Although he had reached the big 80, he still went farming. But Grandma has always been the sick one. Funny how some things turn out to be.

Grandma looked frailer since the last time I saw her.

God bless.

Sunday evening..

My sis brought me to a private bloggers’ meet at Sue’s house. I met one super big fish of the blog-o-sphere and many other different sized fishes.

Blog-o-sphere is full of politics too.

Sue cooked for the whole bunch. When my sis and I arrived, she still had something in her oven. At first I thought we were going to be the last few who arrived because we were at Serian earlier on and we arrived back in Kuching around 4.30pm. We were told to be there at 5pm. Owww~~ the rush.. Fyi, from my house to hers, it’s quite a distance. Anyway, more people arrived after we did, although we were considered late.

They ate, talked and laughed. Ate casserole, spaghetti plus others which I do not quite remember. Then, there were CHOCOLATES!!!! (Sorry ya.. no pictures to show you guys). Talked from salted fish to Harry Potter, from pizza to 300 etc etc of random topics. Laughed at random things too. You know lah, gatherings are always like this. They should be like this, anyway. I was tired after the Saturday late night and the Sunday early morning, I was not in the mood of socialising. So, I just sat there and laughed along.

Sue’s house is GREEN. Walls are green, sofas are green, tables are green, curtains are green. Anything that you can think of is green, green, GREEN. Of course there are other colours, and all these colours complement the greens. Very nice~~ Fresh looking.

This duckling



…belongs to Georgette of Post Mag. Don’t pway pway, it has its own name card. Too bad I held it in the wrong position that its face could not be shown. My sis asked me to take photo with it and I asked why. She gave me the dropped jaw expression. Soli mah.. I really did not know who this duckling was.

I did not know that the traffic at Batu Kawah has changed.Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket Such a long drive before we reached home.





Wednesday, July 18, 2007

温室里的小花



是在没有任何威胁的环境下成长的



它一直拥有足够的阳光,一直不缺乏滋养
它根本不知道外面的世界有什么




它以为自己有足够的装备来面对温室外的世界,以为它本身是不怕面对陌生的环境
它根本不知道人情事故是多麽的复杂




就在一日,小花被圆丁移出了温室




渐渐地,小花开始体验外面的世界
它察觉自己原来是多么的幼稚,多么的不成熟,对外界的认识可是少只又少




它开始慌,开始乱
但它知道这是一个成长的过程,是一个必经的路途




在温室里一直环绕在它四周的自信感,悄悄离开了
它开始处处寻找别人的肯定,但它没察觉要得到别人的肯定,自己必须先肯定自己




它不断地想掌握混杂世界的思想,为了保护自己,不让自己在感情上受伤害, 但它还没办到
庆幸的是它在亲情和爱情上受祝福




在外界生活了一段时间,它更觉得自己好无知
常常失去方向的它,虽然很讨厌迷失的感觉,但它不知如何帮助自己去脱离那种状态




它有时必须带上假面具,有时必须逃跑,躲避
因为它无法解决摆在眼前的问题, 唯有依靠时间带领它解决困扰




它每遇到挫折,就会像只乌龟
它,并不坚强,但它生存的意志力强,就因为这样它能在阳光和雨水里寻找力量, 慢慢地再从壳里爬出来



这朵小花,为何这么人情化?
它就是我
我不可以再为自己找借口了








Photographs by Nic Yau
Flowers from Keukenhof, taken April 2007




Saturday, July 07, 2007

This summer holiday...

...while everyone is enjoying catching up on some series for example House, Prison Break, Grey's Anatomy, Heroes, Gilmore Girls, Smallville, CSI-s(Las Vegas, New York or Miami or all three), One Tree Hill, Bones, 3lbs or starting a new addiction, or going places like London, Perth, Hong Kong, Singapore or somewhere closer like Redang, Langkawi etc etc, I'm doing this...



Those, my friends, are my laptop with the NICE('I' is clickable) website shown, SIGN(another clickable 'I') website half shown, my BNF(clickable 'N'), my notebook, and those patient information leaflets!! So, go on and guess what I am doing. It is not obvious what I am doing to those who have never heard of what NICE and SIGN are and to those who have never heard of BNF, isn't it? I am actually S.T.U.D.Y.I.N.G. Oh, yes!! Studying! During my summer vacation!! How nerdy!!



I am undergoing my placement, you know. Facing all the drugs without a clue on what they are for, the maximum dose that you can give yadda yadda yadda.. it just feels so bad. Plus, the pharmacist does occasionally give me assignments, so no harm doing what I am doing. However, the progress is s.. l .. o.. w.. Cheer for me, guys!Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket



But don't worry. I do something else as well. I'm glued to NTV 7 on Monday for CSI-s, Tuesday for 3lbs, Wednesday for Bones and Grey's Anatomy. There is nothing to watch on Thursday. Friday, I'll be switching on Stars to watch Prison Break.Photo Sharing and Video Hosting at PhotobucketPhoto Sharing and Video Hosting at PhotobucketPhoto Sharing and Video Hosting at Photobucket


Downloading you say? Noooo.. My blood pressure will be sky rocketed if I do that, and my addiction will get out of hand. I rather wait for them to come on on TV. But when I'm back in UK, that, will be a different story...