What if...

…I had chosen another university?

This question is in my head today. Yes, the useless ‘what if’s type of questions. Whenever I have these sorts of questions in my head, I would stop myself from thinking further. Because…

…‘what if’ would not bring me to where I want to be! I’m better off doing and thinking something more useful i.e. studying for the microbiology test which is in two weeks time! I am at where I am now, so what’s the point of thinking of what could have been if XXXXX instead of XXXXX… right?

But, I let myself think about this question just now. Well, it’s the end of the week (kinda anyway. I have no more lab for the week, what left are lectures, 4 full hours of them, in one go. How relaxing is this?). So, I let myself think about it for a while.

Why am I in this university instead of another university, like in a university closer to home, or rather, at home? I would still get this question from friends on msn although I am already here for my 2^nd year: ‘Why do you go overseas to study?’ and the follow up question would be: ‘Didn’t you think of your parents’ financial burden?’

How am I supposed to answer those questions? I could only type back “haha..”

“What if I went for Form 6 and not A-levels?” I would have a STPM cert instead of A-levels cert.

“What if I did not apply for Malaysian Matriculations?” I would be offered a place in Form 6.

“What if I did not turn down the Matriculations offer?” I would have stayed in Sabah for quite some time.

“What if I did not see the advertisement in the newspaper about the scholarship offered by Sedaya?” I would have stepped foot in Sabah and tried snorkeling

Useless thoughts. Told ya ‘what if’ questions are useless and are a waste of time. But if any of those ‘what if’s is not a ‘what if’, I could be on a totally different path now. Why think of what path I could be on? I have a test in two week time!! Study, don’t dwell on what could have been!!

Anyhow, I let myself waste more time on recalculating how much I would have used for my whole time here, then searched on the tuition fees of other university (Not that I didn’t do all these calculations few years back, I’m just doing them all over again. So, yea, I did think of my parents’ financial burden). I can’t compare my fees with other UK universities’ fees. I would not even be here if my fees are of the ‘same level’ as others. With universities back home.. my fees including living expenses now is 442% more if I were to be in local university and RM 100,000 more if I were to go private, and few thousands less if I were to go twinning. You get what I am trying to say? Don’t bother if you don’t. Just some useless figures.

See, I waste my time on unproductive stuff again. Microbiology is in two weeks, babe!! Presentations in two weeks too!!

Why are there three photos of some writings on papers? Does this question cross your head while you are reading? They are completely unrelated to the post content, don’t they? I’ll tell you what these photos are. These photos show Felicia’s handwriting, LaiYee’s handwriting and my handwriting. I was in lectures today sitting in between them. Look at their handwritings!!

一粒一粒地, 端端正正，整整齐齐，漂漂亮亮(in short，they are neat)

while mine is….

撩撩草草， 随随便便， 乱七八糟(in short, so not neat!)

Then a few seats away was Deborah, also with one of those neat handwritings! I felt so out of place.

Handwriting can tell a personality. So, do you understand me more now that I have published my handwriting?

Huahahahahaha...

I'm being totally random...

**Halloween!! Going out later!**